woman. not female.

i really dont like it when we refer to women as females.

female is a scientific term, we use it for animals.

i am not an animal. i am a woman.

we dont refer to men as males, dammit.

no, im not being overly sensitive or overly politically correct

(b/c i think there is no such thing, but leave that for another time),

but i do belive that word choice is important.

k, thats all, thank you.

B O D Y- [my name is]: as of aug 25, it's Sha Alemu Mekebeb
[in the morning I am]: stilll at work, holding shit down at the 211. i dont get off until 8:30am.
[all I need is]: carols daughter tui hair oil. its how i want to smell all the time, sweet earthy, and a little like candy.
[love is]: really great, i recommend everybody use it.
[I'm afraid of]: those green flying beetles. they dive right for your head.
[I dream about]: meeting the family in ethiopia

-D O .Y O U / / A R E .Y O U-
[smoke cigarettes]: smoked cloves in high school, but nothing since.
[could you live without the computer?]: I could but wouldn't want to
[what's your favourite food?]: Harar's number 17, green beans and carrots.
[what's your favourite fruit?]: cherries
[drink alcohol?]: im a social drinker
[smoke weed?]: not on the regular. i think ive smoked maybe 5 times in my life. the last two times were in africa, and i nearly passed out. ask me about it some time.
[like watching sunrises or sunset]: im not so nature-y, but if with the husband, i enjoy.
[trust others way too easily?]: yes... let one friend run up a $600 cell phone bill. i aint mad at her, she's irresponsible like that and i shouldve known. she doesnt talk to me anymore, b/c i slept w/her co-worker. oops, guess im the irresponsible one now!

W H I C H . I S . B E T T E R-
[coke or Pepsi} : i dont generally drink soda, but if pressed, pepsi.
[flowers or candy]: neither. i'd like a nice msg on my machine when i get home, or a note, those are nice.
[tall or short]: i thought i was only about the tall until i met my husband.

-W I T H .T H E. O P P O S I T E. S E X-
[what do you notice first?]: eyebrows.
[dream boy/girlfriend]: the one i married

-W H O-
[makes you laugh the most?]: kanesha
[makes you smile]: my godson Akaio
[gives you a funny feeling when you see them]: tewodros
[has a crush on you?]: burtson
[do you find easiest to talk to]: strangers

D O. Y O U .E V E R-
[hate] white people, every fucking day.
[sit on the internet all day waiting for someone special to I.M. you?]: nah
[save aol/aim conversations]: i have once or twice.
[wish you were a member of the opposite sex]: not since jr high school

W H O .W A S .T H E .L A S T. P E R S O N-
[you talked to on the phone]: the husband
[hugged]: momma [you instant messaged]: szymon.
[you laughed with]: sandra g.

-D O .Y O U-
[color your hair]: sometimes. i like cherry red, pink, and black.
[ever get off the damn computer]: forget you!
[habla espanol]: si, pero un poco solomente

-N U M B E R-
[of times I have had my heart broken?]: oh god, i hate that rat-bastard to this day!!!!!!!!!!! just kidding...
[of hearts I have broken?]: ooohh.. im feeling hated on...
[of times u had sex this week]: nona.
[of boys I have kissed?]: *pish* like 100?
[of girls I have kissed?]: no... never... ever... not that theres anything wrong with that, but hey... i know who i am.
[of drugs taken illegally?]: does weed count? if so, 1.
[of cd's that i own?]: *pish* like 100?
[of scars on my body?]: none, im flawless
[of things in my past that i regret?]: 5 things a day, everyday, for the last 29 years.

roshini.net

my favorite new website is www.roshini.net. It’s her hair journal that I found completely by accident, I was probably doing a google image search on something hair related. I look at hair pictures a lot, they inspire me. To what, im not sure, b/c I know I’ll never put a chemical relaxer in my hair again, I only did 4 years of that nonsense and it was enough. I look up pictures of locks a lot b/c I miss mine. Every picture I see, every person I see them with, I think to myself, “my locks was tougher than that.” Is that bad? I look at natural hair style pictures, trying to bide my time and have patience as my hair grows. I had locks for 7 years, and then I cut them off. A month later, I shaved my head completely. It’s a year later, I have a mad afro now, and im looking forward to them cute Bantu knots (which I first wore in 1994 by the way, youngsters).

i have a heterosexual crush on roshini, I aspire to be like her. She is black, around my age, natural hair. She’s cute and funny and strives to better herself in all ways. she battles w/depression and was medicated for a couple of years. i dont know if she still is. i am, but i dont take the pills regularly as i should. She’s struggling with traction alopecia (goddamned headwraps. I knew deep down wearing them heavy locks w/cloth everyday wasn’t good for me, but you couldn’t tell me nothing back then, I thought I was too cute). I think im going to start using some of her journal topics to do my own too, write about my goals, etc. I write about sex too much. Do too many stupid surveys.